I definitely haven't watched this since the season 6 premiere spoilers burst onto the scene and killed off my fandom participation, and there is a little part of me that is all the fight in the piano room is gonna happen again. soon. and this time Blaine won't be able to fix it and it will destroy him, but fortunately we can either ignore that voice or be like, "yeah, but since it's also been so long since we looked at spoilers we can genuinely no longer remember that Karofsky supposedly exists, and are busy chewing on the angsty deliciousness of a depressed!Blaine who Depressions so hard he fails out of school and flees New York," and long story short, that's when I turn to my theoretical Blaine/Living In The Middle of Nebraska AU and make up my own ending about how they get back together.
But right now, I just wanna bask in THIS moment, and the fact that Blaine is 100% earnestly ready to walk away from the showcase if it means Kurt will forgive him. Oh, I've missed you two.
(I have also kinda missed Chris Colfer, Actor, as opposed to Colfer the Writer. It's almost a wild novelty now, so little time has he spent in front of a camera outside this super-show)
Also, if I even forgot the lines, I definitely forgot all of Blaine's micro-expressions while Kurt is talking. Or maybe I never noticed them, maybe that is a new habit I picked up from fixating on Walter in my Scorpion binge to wring every inch of meaning out of every quality scene, but suffice to say I am thoroughly Hung Up on his about-to-cry face the whole time Kurt is somberly talking through his bird analogy while really, really sounding like he's about to lead into a breakup.
And then...THANK YOU HUGGING. I did not forget that, but I have deprived myself of it so long that I was able to recapture approximately 90% of the original thrill.
Now let's just, like, super super SUPER not think about how heart-stabbingly awful some of these lines have become now, when juxtaposed with the very next goddamn episode ("
ou give someone your heart to look after and you tell yourself that you're safe, but you never know if today or tomorrow is gonna be the day that they drop it like a stone. Read more: https://www.springfieldspringfield.co.uk/view_episode_scripts.php?tv-show=glee&episode=s05e20
You give someone your heart to look after and you tell yourself that you're safe, but you never know if today or tomorrow is gonna be the day that they drop it like a stone" OH REALLY KURT? REALLY? Tell me more about this supposed fear that was apparently actually a warning) and yep, yep, okay, now I am definitely remembering the feeling of exactly how the spoilers 4 years ago blew my heart to pieces and salted the earth in their wake.
Antidote: Imma just make a quick playlist for myself of "love songs Blaine sang to Kurt over the years."
All of Me
Against All Odds (MY HEADCANON HAS OVERWRITTEN CANON)
All You Need is Love
Somewhere Only We Know
Teenage Dream (acoustic) (I CAN MAKE IT HAPPIER IN MY HEAD)
Not While I'm Around
did I forget any? that I know about, i.e. not from season 6? ...or the, like, 80% of season 5 I have not seen?
Last note before I get back to work: I decided to see if the whole "I haven't watched it in so long that the original thrill comes back" thing worked on the end of 5x16, and...HOLY CRAP. This is even better. Damn, Darren, that is some fine self-loathing and hurt wrapped in tension and defensive anger you have brought to the table for the argument there, followed in short order by emotional collapse. And best of all, I finally feel like I can read sincerity in Kurt's final response. Never could see it before. Now I have everything I want. *floats off on shipper cloud*