RS (rainbowstevie) wrote,

A True Story

When I was a little kid, I started to watch Dumbo at my grandparent's house, but I started crying so hard when they separate him from his mother that I wore myself out and fell asleep. No amount of my parents telling me it had a happy ending when I woke up could convince me to finish watching it, so I never did.

I'm bringing this up because I am 12 minutes from the end of Unicorn Store, and I don't actually know if this one has a happy ending but I HAVE BEEN SOBBING OFF AND ON FOR ROUGHLY THE PAST THIRTY MINUTES OF THIS FILM and I was just starting to dry up but now I am like, seizing and struggling to breathe through my blocked nose, so IDK how I am going to get there.

This film, for all its fantastical whimsy and legit magic, is just such a SHOT TO THE HEART of what it feels like to stumble out of college and back to your parents' house with no idea what to do next. How to be a grown-up. What to make of boys. (or are they men now? are you old enough to interact with Men on a personal level?) Especially when you still cling to your childhood loves that the world has told you to put away. HI I'M CRYING AGAIN because I just remembered the part where she angrily bags up all her old things. I did that with my Breyers and My Little Ponies and (some of) my stuffed animals in a similar fit of anger and heartbreak. (of course the My Little Ponies eventually made it back out, which I really hope is paralleled by her getting her unicorn at the end)

Anyway, go watch it. Being in the Pushing Daisies state I am, I am almost as perfectly primed to be receptive to it as I would have been when I was closer to these acute feelings, say, 9-11 years ago.

UPDATE: I made it to the end.[spoilers!]WHAT IS THIS ONE UNICORN STYLE NONSENSE. HOW DARE YOU. God, this is horrible! Now I'm crying HARDER THAN EVER because this is horribly remniscient of something else in my life and I don't even know what. My memory is blocking it. But there is something where I cried my heart out and consigned it to the past even though I still wanted it and that's why even though this is a stupid-ass decision, i cannot elect to ignore it because I understand for some reason that she has to, even though I'm pretty sure that reason is just SELF SABOTAGE AND UNCONSCIOUS SELF-HARM.

(WHAT DUDE WOULD NOT INSIST YOU KEEP A UNICORN. Throw that whole man away. The other lady can wait her turn. There are obviously more unicorns.)

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